the mawnin' music shuffle is my tarot reading for the day

after it all when it's said and done
will you come back to me and tell me that
it was never up to you or up to me
- after it all, cat power

you pretend that it's alright
to wait up half the night
and he cant be bothered to phone
you spend another night alone
i'm not trying to make you mad
or act like your dad
it's time that you were told
your boyfriend's an asshole
- yr boyfriend, casiotone for the painfully alone

hard to hold, cold to touch
fall to pieces, treat the rush
in hindsight, with prime time talk.
all your pain will end here.
let the doctor soothe your brain, dear.
- doctor blind, emily haines and the soft skeleton

we salute at the threshold of the north sea in my mind
and a nod to the boredom that drove me here to face the tide and swim.
i swim. oh, swim.
dip a toe in the ocean. oh how it hardens and it numbs.
the rest of me is a version of man, built to collapse into crumbs.
and if i hadn't come down to the coast to disappear
i may have died in a land-slide of the rocks, the hopes, and fears.
so swim until you can't see land
swim until you can't see land
are you a man or are you a bag of sand?
- swim until you can't see land, frightened rabbit

half of you can only speak
the other half will come as you sleep
when you were the only one
in the arms
of someone you would lose
it'll be a while for now
there's so much left to choose
- transport, yuji oniki


she said it's lonely here tonight
she's always sad when she's alone
she said i need you here tonight
she couldn't wait till i get home
she loves me and that's all i need to know
she's part of my life, just a part i won't let go
then she said
love me tomorrow. won't you please promise me?
- love me tomorrow, chicago


and one with indecipherable lyrics, or one that you can hear what you want to hear when you listen to it, that i love: "anne elephant" by someone still loves you boris yeltsin