i'm sorry darlings
i hit my snooze button for
another three months

& this sharp corner
morning an unexpected
elbow in my gut

desperate desires:
stay home all day in blankets
watch deer from window

my diligent
avoidances

& i am endlessly
consumed by such
an energetic ennui

what time
i waste
waiting
for when
i'll want it

kissed a ghost
for that moment
it had gravity
stronger than
his conversation

informed yet
deforming & i
didn't deserve a
lustre longer

but i caught
a bit of his tongue
& felt redeemed
like some rogue
jury letting a
scoundrel go

cradled in this cold
crook of winter's long night limb
weaving a few words