mayday resolutions

may day is a good day to re-evaluate my resolutions. it's like, mayday! mayday! i'm not doing what i planned to! help! let's fix this.

1. stop putting up with takers.

2.a. be selfish about who i keep close.
2.b. find better people to keep close.

3. if i don't write, draw every day. if i don't draw, write. no exceptions. one is good. both is better.

4. get lost. go wandering. at least one adventure a week.

5. save enough money for a fucking car already. even if it's a piece of shit. as long as it runs. this is a necessity.

6. be selfish with my time. it's precious, and should be spent on precious things.

7. cut the bullshit. especially the bullshit i try and give to myself.

8. i don't have to forgive everyone for everything. it's ok to call an asshole an asshole. It's better to not even call them.

9. be me. the end. stop trying to please everyone with all the little facets, it's making me miserable. 

10. emotional integrity, and integrity in general. refocus to this. stop being afraid to face the feelings, and ignore what everyone else thinks is the right thing. do what i know is the right thing. 

11. i had cancer. my arm doesn't work great. it's ok to be sad and mad about this. even if people act like it's not.

12. work when I work, and play when I play.

13. read more. read more poetry.

14. write my fucking novel.

13. one random, anonymous act of service for someone else every day. earn some karma credits.

15. find someone who will be sweet to me.

16. keep letting love happen. even if it hurts.

17. white hot passionate is the only way to be.

18. let past crap stay in the past. learn to let go. focus on the instants at hand.

19. only listen to good music.

20. stop worrying my opinions will offend someone. stick up for what i believe in. stand for things.