so some of you may or may not be aware that i was laid off from my job of two years at the beginning of august. it was quite a frustrating thing. also, i have been sick all this week with a combination of tonsillitis and laryngitis and have been trying to sleep it off and drown it because i no longer have health insurance.
right now i am sitting at my computer eating some ice cream because it's the only thing i can swallow tolerably. i sound like a throat cancer victim.
i know i complained about my job a lot. well, not my job, per se, but the people i worked with. but after being unemployed for nigh over a month now, i can tell you this: i would much rather have a job that i hate than no job at all.
i have been super discouraged. like, probably more discouraged than i ever have been at any other point in my life previously. and a while ago, i decided i was going to stop posting such depressing whiny blog posts here because nobody wants to come read about how sad and miserable i am - which is why i haven't been posting too much.
despite how familiar i am with the feeling of discouragement, i don't handle it very well. not well at all.
i guess i just figured i should write something to say i am still around. even if the definitions of "around" and even "i" are shaky and hollow lately.
that's all.
good to hear you're still around - i am too, even though i'm in a posting slump - it's okay, it happens to the best of us - so does getting laid off - i've found it got easier every time - but it always sucks - and then it seems great in retrospect, tend to lead to something better - but it's shitty slogging out the waiting for something better period - good thing you're an artist full time - that got me through some bad times
ReplyDeletealways good to know you're around, jonathan. you're right, the slogging and wa(it/d)ing are pretty shitty. psh. pretty shitty. listen to me typing. back to bed.
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