blargh

Moody, lately. Malcontent. Feeling stuck in these places, situations, with no options. Taut, like the edges of me are pulling away. Do I get like this every summer? I feel like I go in these cycles of moodiness, almost every three months, and it always seems to get bad during the late spring/summer. Don't know why. Pleh.

I feel like I should figure out what's wrong with me, like there IS something wrong with me, I just don't know how to find out, and I feel ridiculous when I want to talk about it with people. And I don't want to go to a therapist, because I can't even be straightforward with a therapist... like the therapist is going to judge me... which sounds stupid. argh. I just don't know.

Too many wordless concerns, too many feelings that I can't express, that are trapped behind some means that I don't have.

Or maybe I'm just too scared to say. Because all the times I do say things, they don't seem to matter.

I don't even want to post this, it doesn't say anything.