You Fi-yahd!

So, childrens. I have returned from hiatus because I have stuff to tell the peoples.

I got fired yesterday from crappy MyFamily.com job. I always hated my job there, and totally knew this was coming, but didn't really expect it to happen around Christmastime, and definitely not for the reasons that it DID happen.

Apparently my old supervisor, and someone who I thought was a friend, has been grudging me for the past few months because I've remained friends with Su and Dan, and she's been totally embittered. (She thought Dan was madly in love with her. She's frighteningly delusional about relationships...) Anyway, my real supervisor was out of town on Tuesday, because she left for Thanksgiving a day early, and Jillian (the girl in question) was subbing for her.

Turns out Jillian's been trying to get rid of me for ages, because all the part-timers liked me better than her. (I'm not saying this to boast, I'm saying it because it's true.) So she makes up some completely BULLSHIT report about me undermining authority and being willfully disrespectful, and that I was browsing the web way after my break. (I had accidentally left the window open instead of shutting it down before I went back to my auditing work.)

She tells Tony (the manager from hell who hates me because I called him on the carpet for taking advantage of the fact that he's on salary and not hourly pay anymore, and that it's ridiculous that he suddenly only comes in for 15 hours a week tops) that she told me on numerous occasions that she needed me to scan the microfilm rescans, which are always top priority. And he pulled me aside yesterday and threw all this stuff in my face. What sickened me was the fact that he looked so happy while he said it.

In reality, all Jillian had said was, "When you're done with that audit, can you come film scan?" ONE TIME. And by the time I'd finished my audit, my shift was over. I tell Tony this. Tony says, "I have to trust my supervisors, or else everyone will think that I'm bending the rules for you, and I can't do that, or no one will respect the rules or me." Apparently he doesn't know that no one respects him anyway. Sigh.

Then they had me go get my stuff, and took my badge and he made me stand out in the snow for 20 minutes without a jacket while I waited for my ride. Wouldn't even let me wait in the foyer.

Now, I've been looking for another job for months, because I knew that Tony's been prowling for an excuse to throw me out on my ear. But to have a person who I thought was a friend, to have Jillian be the one who stabs in the back, at Christmastime, no less, was what hurt the most.

Y'know, I've always been one to have faith in people. To give humanity the benefit of the doubt. Especially here in Utah, with the predominance of a religion which teaches that Christlike attributes and actions are of the highest priority, and that to love your neighbor as yourself is one of the most important commandments. Sometimes it makes me really sad, to see how so many people blatantly and repeatedly say one thing and do another.

I admit that I haven't always been the best person for sticking to my Mormon beliefs. I do swear, sometimes a lot. And sometimes I, myself, can be really mean, but I don't do either of those things and think that I'm still in the right. And I don't go around telling people to be nice and stop swearing.

I suppose it's easy to understand that in a place where Mormons are so highly concentrated, you get a good dose of those who are Mormon because they think it makes them look good. To the point where looking like they live the gospel is more important than actually living it.

And then, when you superimpose that demographic on top of a corporate environment, I suppose I shouldn't be so surprised that hypocrisy and politics are even more pronounced. And that someone who calls people on the carpet for that sort of thing, someone who has always abhorred injustice, must have no place there.

Is it like that everywhere? I suppose I will never really be able to find a job where I fit in, because I don't fit in. I never have. I say what I think about things. I say how I feel. I tell people the truth, and never sit idly by while people in authority get away with crap.

But apparently those aren't important qualities. Apparently someone who's willing to take a stand is a menace, and not a help. Apparently standing for truth and justice is something that gets you fired, not something that helps.

It's hard, when your optimism, and your willingness to trust people, takes a hit like that. When you get slapped in the face for trying to be a friend, and trying to make a place better.

I think communism is a good idea, in theory. But I'll never believe in it, or advocate it, until you can prove to me than humanity is incorruptible.

Because at the end of the day, it seems, the liars and the hypocrites come out on top. And either there's something fundamentally wrong with the world, or there's something fundamentally wrong with me having faith in people.

And I'd hate to think that it's the latter.