cancer
showed me
it's okay to

be angry

& feel angry
& give myself
time with anger

to work through it
or sit with it
or roll around in it pouting

until whatever next emotion
comes to meet me

on my feet

this ersatz calm

of an eve ended
too early to elide
my endeavors &
some easy sleep

so tits up it's time
to tangle with that
dread expanse of
demons between

this screen & my
dark ceiling or more

twixt today's untaxed
untested brain & a good
night's sleep again

assumption a
hebetate habit

& i wedge my words
in a wheech to fill
half-full mouths

too glaikit gibbous
to wager such waits
of my impatience

o new slew of snow
most unbeckoning blanket
thin, mean, & cold-toed

stoss side of sunrise
calculating snooze taps from
blankets disinterred