out of cash
i rarely carry
but bought extra

burgers at lunch
& drove around
searching for

someones
who looked
like they could
eat & make better

use of those
blankets in
the backseat
of my car

drawn thewy
in cut contours
from such strength
as requisite for a
load of letting go

i'm sorry darlings
i hit my snooze button for
another three months

& this sharp corner
morning an unexpected
elbow in my gut

desperate desires:
stay home all day in blankets
watch deer from window

my diligent
avoidances

& i am endlessly
consumed by such
an energetic ennui